Friday, February 12, 2010

don't you dare believe

Love, is there such a thing? Is love an object describable by science? Or is it just an emotion that's why it is considered non-scientific? What then is it really?

Who in the world never experienced love? Who in the world will never experience it? Perhaps no one, if you would agree with me. For love does not only appear in the presence of a person to whom you are romantically entangled with but it also comes in different circumstances.

An example is friendship, the so called ground base level of romance, a friend could be a person you trust the most or a person that could be considered your "shock absorber". For some, the usage of friend is someone to be the vanguard shield that leads them to salvation but leaving the person in a hell condition, such a sad situation though, but we know that this happens.

Selfishness is a form of love too. Perhaps you would affirmatively go with what I mean, right? Because you could not be selfish if you are not ultimately in love with yourself?

But friendship or selfishness that I'm to talk about here but the love all of us knows, romantic kind of love, that is.

Most of the people in the world have experienced the joy of the topic, but almost all who has loved has also experienced the pain of failure. It feels like being bankrupt after investing your all to a business you thought would give you more benefits in the end. Actually, I am not an exemption to that happening.

It all started way back in high school, I had this girl I have always wanted, she was an ordinary school girl with nothing very special connected to her, but I fell for her, I just wonder. Never sure why and what happened, I started courting her, and for the first and only time of my life, a girl put me down, she dumped me. It was a painful experience, but I never lost hope, so I continued my "pure" intentions towards her which finally led to a victorious YES from her. It felt like I was in cloud nine that time, a happiness which seemed not to be contained in my heart alone, but it was a mind game, never knowing my agony has just started after her promising answer.

We started going to college one day. I thought it would just be fine for both of us, but what I thought was the irony of what really happened. She started becoming cold towards me, she never texts me, and other things women do when they don't want you anymore. It was really frustrating, the times we spent together seemed to fade away as I look at her from a far being happy with her new friends, and leaving me wounded.

She tried a couple of times breaking up with me, but I never let her go, and fortunately, she never text back her answer. Until one Valentine's Day of the year 2008, everything ended to dust, she told me her feelings have changed and she wants me to get out of her life, those were the not worst word I have heard, but it felt the most painful of all.

For months, I didn't know what to do, I leaped from a girl's arm to another just to forget the tragedy I have experienced. It seemed to work though, but when I'm alone, I still felt empty.

Until, one day, a text message appeared. It said "Hi, kumusta na ka?" ( Hi, how are you? ), it was from her, from the girl who caused me everything.

After that, we became friends again. I have proven myself that I was not angry or vengeful towards her that was why, I asked her to ones again give it another blow. And fortunately, she gave me a smile of hope. And maybe you know what happened next.

It was a hell of a roller coaster ride, but it was a fun and exciting ride. And so I would say those were the things LOVE has given me. This is the reason why, the next time, I will dare not believe that love gives joy, for next time, I will take it not by BELIEVING, but by FAITH.

Right, Neiza?


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  3. I like how well you made your transition from one paragraph to the next. Your entry's content is good, too. It's easy to scan and it's content, as mhereal put it, is interesting; it set me up perfectly for the unexpected twist. Great story!